Most of the time, I feel like a complete and total recluse. So I hardcore related to Kit in Unicorn Store, a perfect film for my lazy Sunday afternoon. I couldn’t have watched it at a better time, either. There are a lot of changes happening in my life and I have a hard time not avoiding my problems. But that is the thing about problems, just because you avoid them, doesn’t mean they go away.
I found Brie Larson’s directorial debut magical. It hit close to home in a number of ways, especially feeling like you’re just a disappointment. I feel like I’m supposed to be further ahead in life by now. But, what keeps me going is writing about my life through the movies that I watch. It might seem small or silly, but writing about films in this way has already been amazingly cathartic.
This is why movies are so important to me, why they are magic: they can make us feel less alone in our worries. They can give us the strength to show up as ourselves in the world—the secret is knowing yourself. I denied my love for film for so long because I felt like I wasn’t “good enough” for my dreams of filmmaking. But that’s bullshit. Like Kit says in the film “Every person alive has a dream.” And I’ve decided to dive into mine in whatever capacity I can.
Kit proves that we can have the most ridiculous dreams in the world, and that it doesn’t matter what people think of them. What’s important is that the people who are significant will believe in us. I haven’t believed in myself and I never thought that by writing about movies I could. Yet here I am. Almost 100 days sober and doing what I love the most: Immersing myself in the world of storytelling.